I'm back from my internship training for almost two months and wheres the update? Well, im slacking on my bed most of the time in my dreamland.. yeah eu get what i mean.
Last night(26th april) was a great night. I attended a grand wedding dinner... i can feel the happiness. And then that feeling got me thinking. I tell you, that is a seriously pathetic thinking.
I was like i would love to have someone standing side by side, supporting me, love me, ..... etc too. And then another side of me was like stronger saying i can stand alone. Ibhave been all these while. What's the purpose of that wall you built around you.? You saw and read lots. You wouldnt want to get hurt.
But i've never gotten hurt! That was what i replied to.
Inner self battle is what some sad person will do. I don't know now.
I mean i am strong enough to stand and battle alone till my death. Aquantice not, i am okay. As long im not hurt. It is selfish but what can i do. Seriously even sucker or moron gets to love and two became one.
I vow to not love and then when i got crushes over crushes last time, i feel like dying. Breaking my vow. But then i still stood strong.. rediculous thoughts took control. I can die. These things are eating me alive.
Well the small light telling me that maybe that person have yet to arrive.. yet. Haha.
Confuse confusion. But i never want him or her to appear.. cause im a scared. Hahaha.. excuses but true. I DONT WANT TO.
I read too much. I've seen too much. And i dont want to be the next victim of cupid.
Yeah i've rejected few people secretly too. And now that i've said it out i'm sure some who read this is going to ask me question especially my fwen. Hmmmm..
So yeah so much for my babbling. Here i end it with a selfie..
Much love from me.
(I wish everyone all the best)
이카이
xoxo
