Heartache

Hi there readers,

It has had been really a while since i've posted anything here. I've also noticed that the moment i update my blog, that is the time i am facing some life problems. Remember previous time I was more like a loner, a goner and i reject people due to reasons, but now I am facing problems on my love life. TO start of with, actually i really had no idea what is going on. At first it was smooth and fine but out of nowhere things just went out of place. 

Being a newbie in this sector, I have no idea what to do. I've tried to talk it over in a good way, but i have had got no reply from that person. It hurts so much though, since i just want to understand why is it that suddenly things just got idled and cold. I am still learning, so i asked. I might have pressed the limit button myself but I really didn't know. I rather been scold than being treated coldly. I am confused, really confused. I just want someone to lead me. 

"I know you wont be reading this, but i really do care about you."

 I was hoping for a reply, but now it just gets painful and suffocating. Yeah, you might find me being all drama queen, but i won't deny that that is the facts on how i am feeling. right now. I am still holding on hope that a reply will be send to me, deliver to me, talk to me in the face, I don't care how bad the news is, I've braced myself and I am ready. I know my heart will not be able to take it but I will take it as a process of learning and life. 

SO GOD~ please, don't let me wait for too long~ 

signing off..

XOXO

Hey! Hi! Hello!

Dear readers,

It has been such a long long time since i last blogged. My last blogpost was like august 2014.. well hello almost a year yo. How are you all? I bet half of the peeps are like gone.. anyways, i'm here to update anything that comes to my mind at this moment. A brief updates on what had happened and yada yada .....

Okay first thing first, i've been in West Malaysia for almost a year. What was my first intention again? Oh yeah silly me.. i was here to study. Nope i am just acting stupid. Doesnt most bloggers do this? You tell me... okay back to the point. There had been upssss and downsss throughout this year. I've made friends here and there.. met some stranger and then became facebook friends, instsgram friends and so much more. People are crossing my path. Some stop, and lend me a hand. Some just crossed path and walk away. I don't really initiates move but when i do it is too late. I barely even hardly trust people but when i do you are like really important to me. What i wanted to say is that if you try once in approaching me and you really wanted to be my friend, bug me with good intention. I will like it. I just have this attention seeking side sitting inside of me in the corners of me, wanting to be notice but i'm just scared. Some people are just naturally good at socialising but uh-uh, im not. I'm like the awkward starfish sticking out of water. Lolol. "Take a chance" ...

Following up would be..... be.... erm. Wait. Let me think. I really have nothing in mind right now while typing this sentence..
Oh yeah.. i went to a mall in town called "Berjaya Times Square" for ONLY the 3rd time since I first step into West Malaysia. Beat that.. the feeling i got this time during the trip was fun since i'm actually going with people who will shop with me and not people who are just there and not following the game. My game would be shopping and talk and just have fun. Yeap yeap my kind of game... nah.. most people would just ignore me, seriously. I like the feeling of travelling with friends using public transports. It is fun and more eco friendly as we are using car pooling technique and rdducing carbon footprint. What am i even saying but you cannot deny it because it is true. Ok moveing onnnn...

OWH YEAH!!! I HAVE ALMOST FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE REAL DEAL FOR THIS BLOG POST...
Okay so i am going for internship AGAIN. Yes again... but this time is better since i'm doing it here and not Singapore. So let me talk about the differences of having internship locally and internationally.

600 hours local  v 6 months international

I am only required to complete a 600 hours internship in hotel compared to what i had 2 years back, a 6 months internship in Singapore alone. This time, it would be a hell lot easier as i will only work 8 hours a day and not 18 hours a day.  So i will have to work for around 4 months only. Yes.. only.

Somemore halfway through the internship i am going to fly to Australia for 10 days. No replacement needed for the trip yo since it is labeled as school trip. I'll update on the details of trip soon. So far what i known is that the trip was set to be on 10th october 2015....  so stay tune.

I still have lots more to say and type down... but i'm hungry.. so imma gonna stop here and continue tomorrow,... no wait. I think i will do it later on and post tomorrow.

For those who followed my instagram, thank you very much .. i know it is slike sooo late but still thank you.
And to those who added me and followed me on facebook. Thank you too.
And those on twitter... thanks too...

Signing off now.. ♡♥♡♥♡♥

Regards,
Romulus
Xoxo miss me not..

Counting days and down to earth

Hi readers.

Just as what the title says, i'm counting down and getting back to reality. The dreadful day is finally here. 2 and a half day to be exact.

Part of me is nervous, scared, and there is a little tiny weeny bit of me is excited. New challenges and new obstacles are bound to come. And as if i'm alright with it, the world don't. They hate me to disrupt my dream. *here we go again*... fine. I ain't want to touch that topic anyway.

And to mend my dream a bit, just a bit, i want to see if there is this singing club or maybe dancing club ( wtf! I cant even dance and sing well... but i do dance and sing in shower.. that count right??? )
Yeah that might mend my broken heart a bit before society ends me 2 years later.

Just as you know, i am very extremely sensitive and emotional. I ain't being called girly and cry baby for no reason. And i wonder why people even bother to care and tease when others are in a miserable stat. That is just so immoral. Like u drop ur ice cream and i step on it and eat mine in front of your face. You like that huh? I just somehow cannot understand how these people think. Making fun of others is ther specialty??? Well.. maybe..

Everything's gonna be alright. I know I know. I experienced before. Remember i went for a 6 months internship in Sinagapore alone too? Yup. I can manage. But only this time it includes a big sacrifice. My dream job. Just so to satisfy my family. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I feel so bad for myself as i cant even get myself what i want. Like fight for it. That is all bullshit. When your current condition don't allowed you to, no matter how hard you fought for it, you'llnever get what you want. Unless there is miracle.

And oh, someone told me "miracles do happen, jusy keep believing."
And then i was like "am i suppose to? I believe in them then and it breaks me."

Dream is always and forever beautiful. It forms and becomes whatever you want and how you want it. You are free. Free from restriction. Free from constriction. You don't need facade. You are just momentarily you. That is why it is beautiful.

Call me stupid for saying that means you are trap under the curse of the society, unable to dream happy dreams. It is partially true, hands up and agree with me. Society changes people.
Not to say everyone is evil and bad. But u get the hang of it. We watch out for every step we take. Never look back. They told me. Never.ever.look.back.

At first i never understand what does it really means. But as time goes by, i get a hang of it and i realise i should never have look back.
Depression and regrets is what attack you first. Even though u got succession in the past but those will get overshadowed by those mistakes and things you regret you have had done. It is a dark path behind you. That's why there is always this saying "there is no turning back" ....

Why am i even saying all these? Yeah yeah. I am not some counselor. Just i feel like sharing.since this is a blog and it was meant to share thoughts and feelings.

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Oooops.....

Yup. Ooops. Friendzone. Yup. No turning back. Imma gonna be the best friend and wish and walk with this friend till the days we are going to break apart. I will always be there to support... i just hope our blossoming friendship last long. :) i'm not sad. Just surprise that i actually manage to crush on this friend. Too sudden and the urge is still strong. Hahahaha.. pathetic.. lets just stay friends and since there is no forever, then let us stay friends as long as we can manage. :)

Worst feeling ever huh!? But i am getting use to it. I've crushed few times before it is nothing new. So don't worry.. maybe it'll go way after a few years.. let us all hug and make peace.

Wish me luck...

Love.,
rom
Xoxo