Rom pov on :" dawn of the planet of ape"

I'm back with another blabbering post.

I'm not gonna be sad this time so don't worty or cringe your face when you read. Haha.

I just came back from movie. Watched "Dawn Of The Planet Of Ape".

My POV:
The storyline is very very straight forward that I can know what will happen next. Its not a bad thing though.
The ape was very very surreal. The movement, the way they talk, the appearance when closeup... all was superb. Salute to the production crew.
The movie, for me, consisted of a lot of suspense. This moment they are talking then BAM! On the next second. Its not those scary type but still got me to sink lower into my seat. *yeah go ahead and laugh at me*
The only thing i don't like about the movie is that there's a tad bit too much of fight scene. But. That was the main selling point of the movie i guess. It was good but i dont really like it because blood blood blood. I hate blood.

I actually learnt a few marale from the story itself.

"Your closest teammate might be your worst enemy."
"Think before you act"
"Humanity and their fear"

Though some does not make sense but they made a hell lot of senses to me, at least.

So if i was to rate this movie, I'll rate this movie a 3.8/5  .... *dont hate me* that is just my personal point of view....

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See.. i am not sad today. Though i might get sad anytime. Lol. Thanks to my friend though. He keot me distracted enough most of the time and kept me thinking positive. Im not going into details cause i scared i might get sad.. lol.. i'll tell you all how he helped me when i write again. Okay? Kkkkk..

Signing off now... but first let mr. Paranoid take a selfie.

Rom
Xoxo

Blabbering nonsense

Hi there to all silent reader,

I am becoming active on my blog once again. Yup cause i just installed blogger apps on my phone. And yes again i am updating from my phone. It is so easy and convenience.

As you all know, things had been tough on me lately and i have not much of a choice for my life. And well i don't really embrace it well. Reality hurts, and it hurts like a bitch on period.

*sigh*

I wanted to be someone successful
* who doesn't, unless you are weird*
Hereby, imma gonna reveal my dream i had mentioned previously.
It is either I wanted to be a writer or an artist.
I know it sounds downright rediculous.extremely stupid.
Firstly my english is weird and being artist is way more rediculous.
Well what can i do? I love to read and write.
I love to perform on stage. I really do.
But as i said. Reality hurt like bitch on period.
Yup and i am not the kind to embrace it with motherly hug or whatnot.
Im those kind who drill myself deeper down the hole of despair... make sense? Good.

I need a mentor and someone who will lead me. Thats all i ask for. I seriously need to move on from my broken dream. I feels so bad that my heart quench every time i wake up.
*i sound like someone who just got a heartbreak*
Which is partially true. Only that i lose something not someone.
Talking about someone, when will my soulmate appear. But i am scared like shyt because like i said i cant accept that person... urghhhh this is very confusing and cost me so much of self restraining and not giving into that temptation. I vow to not let it come true but i craved for it so damn badly. So bad that it is worst that Godzilla visiting the city.

*sigh sigh*

I just hope everything will be alright after i started my class this coming mid of august. Gonna be a freshman once again. But i am hoping that i will just go through life normally amd not falling head over heels over someone.

Yup. Wish me luck?

I'll write till here and off i go now.. tadada..

Buh bye.  I might update again tonight if i feel like continuing my blabbering. :)

Rom
Xoxo

Thoughts vomit

Hi there!! It's me again *yeah yeah since it's my blog of course it will be me*
Mr thoughtful decided to pay me a visit.
Amd
That
Makes
Me
Think
So
Much
Like
Right
Now.
......

I still cannot decide what am i going to be in the near future which will be in 2 years time. Since that will be when my degree be finishing.
I don't want to regrety whole life knowing that i chose to gave up everything just to live a normal life. What i mean is that i do not want to regret in giving up my dream , my passion just to live a life that people wanted me to.
A part of me wanted to proof them wrong. But i am scared of wasting my time away and i am scared that even if i do, no one will even support me because they will think that it will be such a stupid decision to make. I dont want that..
I've always been special.
I think differently.
I act different.
I can read faces.
I'm full of secrets.
I am so different from my frirnds because they are going the right way in which im lacking off. They don't bend the way i do and i'm ashame of myself. I blamed and still blaming myself. I'm such a black sheep of the family. I can never say it out loud. I can never act what i want. I have to stay strong to keep my family name clean.

It is that serious. I guess you figured out mydarkest secret?

I don't want to be call names. I wont do it to others because i know how painful it can get deep inside and no one can help you because it is meant to be kept and suffer for ownself.
People like me deserve to suffer though because i am a walking sin. A mortal sin. I've admitted to myself not long ago and realised i have no turning back. So my friend. My dear friend. If you are reading this, please do me a favor. Keep it a secret and never let me know.
Even if i die, or disappear, promise me to forever keep it.

I feel like dying? Yes. When you figured out something and admit defeat to ownself, and that sonething is bad, you want to live but its hard because all you can think is death.

It's not i wanted to be like this. Act this way. I was born this way. I will always hate myself.

Thats why my friends ask me why am i helping others so much.

My answer : i know how painful it is deep inside when u need help and support. Even a silent support is desperately needed.

They gave me questioning look. I know i might not make sense. But i will never going to see the light after my death because i walk and sin mortally. Therefore i will help people to live a happier life and reduce pain. I help all i can. I pray for them. I'm not putting up a show now. I just really hope i can help.

People think im a freak and a loner and anti social.

I cant do what normal people do though. Im not telling why because the reason is obvious.

I am not ready to tell me best friend about myself though i suspected that they knew. I am just a coward who is afraid of losing and being abondened.

So please forgive me.

I think i had vomitted enough thoughts.

Till here then
Im signing off..

Rom
Xoxo

Photo retweeted from @relatablequote from twitter.