Star City: XOXO

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7/29/2014

Breaaking news

Hi readers.

Mr. crappy-paranoid-pants is back.

and I have just reformatted my precious computer. and i swear i almost cried during the backup process.
500GB hard-disk and what!? FULL in an instant. In.A.Instant.
and I found I have got a lot of files and trash and craps that I have no idea existed in my computer storage till this morning.
And then my mum beside me keep chanting on how much junk i have and how those are rubbish.
And i was like "hello!? excuse you! THOSE ARE GOLD!" (i'M NOT BEING RUDE, I'm being sarcastic and she knew)...

And oh if you find the adfly thingy annoying, I'm sorry? but I wanted to give it a try.
AFTER 5 SECOND, just click SKIP AD on the right hand side top corner.

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Okay enough of my crap. Now to the real topic of the day. TOTD
I'm finally going over to study.Over to where?
I'm going to Kuala Lumpur in Malaysia for my degree(postgraduate).
I'm excited yet I'm worried because I don't really like Kuala Lumpur. Heard that it was a place with chaos and yeah more to chaotic side though there's still a small good part about it and I can hardly tell you what is the good part. You tell me? Lol.

For those who have like no idea where Kuala Lumpur is, It is located at the west part of Malaysia. Though I'm a Malaysian, I never really travel within my own country and Kuala Lumpur being one of the country I never been to. Wait, not to say never been to. I've been to there once for our Student Government inter-school conference meeting. As a Vice President Admin(Typing this shamelessly) I have been given opportunity to lead my team there. Though not for travel purposes so I assumed I've never been there before.

I'm going to be studying in INTI University Subang. University under Laureatte. And from what I heard, if I can manage to study well and get good results, they'll send us off as exchange student to BLUE MOUNTAINS in Australia. And that catches my attention so much. Since I can't pursue my dream course(Linguistic) and being stuck at the same field, why not give it a try right? although it wasn't an exchange course I wanted but being able to be exchange is a prideful matter. I can be proud for it, for myself. Think of all the good and positive side and I decided to give it a try although I still have no good feeling about Kuala Lumpur.

To be frank about Kuala Lumpur and why I don't really like it is because I keep comparing it with Singapore, another home of mine. WHICH IS SO SAFE AND JUST SO DISCIPLINE. I don't know, call me bias or what, but the vibe that Kuala Lumpur gave me just sickened me and made me so ill about it. ~~AND IF YOU ARE OFFENDED BY HOW I THINK, YOU CAN STOP HERE NOW~~. don't want to offend you more.

I've never really been a loyal supporter for my own country. A good citizen who defend their country. Yeah I bet most people are like me so don't bash me. And to think that I am at a legal age to vote, It just scares me so much. It was like I'm still so young the day before and BAM reality hits you so hard that you feel like you just got run over by a truck. ~~Remember I said I'm not a loyal citizen right? And yeah you can mostly guess where my votes go to then~~. :D (Don't worry, I'm not into politic at all. So I don't give a fuck shit about that)
My political view be like ....

POLITIC = K-POP

cliche... very ciche... You know you love me anyway...

And oh. If any of you reader see me in Kuala Lumpur mall in the coming days, PLEASE DO NOT CALL ME. Just leave me alone. :D ~~I'm shy~~

I'll just write till here. YUP.. signing off.
Will update tomorrow on my shopping haul if i manage to get what I originally wanted on my shopping list.
Bye.

ROM
XOXO

6/10/2014

Life and misery

Hi readers..(not sure if anyone's reading this, maybe i am just talking to my blog itself)

I know im not a really loyal blogger. :) sorry for that. If you really finish reading my misery, i thank you with everything.

Its gonna be me rambling about my worries again. I'll get straight to ramble.

It is eating me inside out. Every moment every ticking second, i am having this internal self war. I have no clue and i am not sure what i want to do in my life. My future.

I am not talking about love. I have never love and probably never will love. Yeah yeah. I am a coward. Im just afraid of getting hurt. I never like getting hurt even physically. I know i should not be talking about love but i cant stop after getting in this stupid thing called love. Watching my crush stepping out without making a sound and still keeping my smile on. Yes. I have had several crush. Both genders included. I am not ashamed of saying this but i am afraid. Afraid of how people will see me. Afraid of how my friends will react. But i hope that to those who really trust me will not hurt me with words. Saying it here is better than the real confrontation. I never like confrontation because its either i get hurt or the other party get hurt.

Internal war of thoughts. Not thoughts of success. I am so scared of what is going to come into my life. What am i in the near future. Where will i be. Will it bey dream job or will i be what i think and dream of what i will be.? Everything is a mess. And by every passing second, the goal that i originally held on to starts to fade and diaappear. It is getting blurry. The road ahead used to shine so bright but now it is getting foggy. Seeing how my friends move on and walk down their path smoothly scares me. I thought giving up life once or twice. But the thoughts of disappointingmy parents and best friends halt my action. I am thankful for that. Maybe it was one part of the spiritual support they sent me unconsciously.

Have you ever thought of leaving this world so that you will have never to suffer from being a mess in life and being a mess in others people life where they have to watch out for youeven when they have their own partner and family to take care of? I did. And it is cutting me slowly and painfully. I do not want to be a load for my friend and family. I wanted to be independent. I wanted to be succesful. But i cant do it now. Maybe the me in the past few months can. But not now. I'm a weakling, a coward and someone who loses his goal slowly. You might think i wrote this and realiaze and gonna do changes to my own negative perspective. The answer is YES. I did and it was not working. All thoughts of strenghten up leads to one decision... death. I am scared. I wanted to live on. But something is holding me back. It's like i've been chained up and i don't like that. I wanted to spread my wings and fly. I wanted to be free. I wanted to give my dream a try. I wanted the people i love to support me. I wanted the people i love to tell me it's okay to fall. I wanted them to catch me. I wanted a shoulder to cry on. It scares me when i think there will be no one at the bottom of the cliff when i try to fly and i drop.

Dear people i love so much. Can you see me through the shining journey of yours.?Can you see me who is now surrounded by fog of despair.?
I won't expect too much. But i really hope you'll be there when i need you most. Any of you who really do care. I know i am pathetic and silly for even questioning the bonds and tie between us. But i just want assurance.

I love you all. And i will try to think straight. I need time. But time dont need me. They fly so fast so smooth that i cant catch up.
I am always the one that left behind.
Hahaha
Pathetic i know.

You never probably will know how it feels like to smile when your heart hurt so much from the wounds that you yourself just stiched up. It still bleed but not much. It hurts to smile. I am not as strong as you think i am. My facade will not break in front of anyone. Maybe a little but it wont get off completely. I am sure there is really no one who knows anyone deep to the core of their heart.

If i ever look through this post again in my near future, i will comment here and tell you all how succesful i am.

Smile. They said. I smile. Live your dreams. They said.... but its not true. I'm living now to catch my dream but people keep pushing me down and let my dreams flutter away.
I am really sad....

So if anyone of you is now reading this line and you are not thinking of how stupid i am, i love you. If you are thinking of how stupid i am for posting this and all those thoughts, i love you too for giving your attention to me.

I love you all.. thank you for listening. I really do.

Xoxo

6/02/2013

EXO official event

Hello there!!!

There is this official event from SM ENTERTAIMENT STAFF & EXO THEMSELVES...

HELP BY WATCHING THEIR MV(WOLF) TILL 2.5M VIEWS... korean version

THEN BY THEN FANS WILL GET A SUPRISE..
*MIGHT BE THE DRAMA VERSION OF THE MV OF WOLF*

WHAT TO DO.
1. DO NOT PLAY THE VIDEO USING REPLAY BUTTON, REFRESH THE PAGE AFTER FINISH
2. USE HEADSET IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO LISTEN(LOL)

I JUST HOPE WE GOT TO SEE THEIR MV ALTHOUGH I AM GONNA SKIP THE KISS PART... LOLOLOLOL

XOXO
MISS ME NOT

5/29/2013

EXO Comeback

HI readers! I know I have not been update for a long time.

and here I am. UPDATES!

The King of Rookie K-pop(Korean pop) group is going to have a comeback on the 30th May 2013.

That will be their comeback stage, and their full music video will also be release on that day(30th MAY)

at 5 ~ 6 pm (KST).

Physical album will release on 3rd JUNE 2013.

This will be thei first album with 10 songs, 4 songs from their debut teasers (baby don't cry, black pear, let out the beast, my lady)

Their title track "WOLF" (늑대와 미녀) will be an upbeat hip hop and some dub step element in it, its quite wild and heaty. so do anticipate a lot from them.

DO vote for them at MNET

http://mwave.interest.me/poll/video/vote.m?poll_seq=29

*create an account and vote for them during their performances and also vote for them every 24hrs*

And also preordered for their album are now available.

get them on Yesasia.com or other online music shops.

I-tunes, Genie, Soribada, .....etc will be available after album release.

The album was name "XOXO - Kiss & Hug"

Kiss for Korean version

Hug for Chinese version

tracklist as below.

Track List:

CD (Kiss Ver.) Korean

01. 늑대와 미녀 (Wolf)

02. Baby, Don't Cry (인어의 눈물)

03. Black Pearl

04. 나비소녀 (Don't Go)

05. Let Out The Beast

06. 3.6.5

07. Heart Attack

08. 피터팬 (Peter Pan)

09. Baby

10. My Lady

11. 늑대와 미녀 (Wolf) (EXO-K Ver.)

12. 늑대와 미녀 (Wolf) (Chinese Ver.)

CD (Hug Ver.) Mandarin

01. 狼与美女 (Wolf)

02. Baby, Don't Cry (人鱼的眼泪)

03. Black Pearl

04. 蝴蝶少女 (Don't Go)

05. Let Out The Beast

06. 3.6.5

07. Heart Attack

08. 彼得潘 (Peter Pan)

09. Baby (第一步)

10. My Lady

11. 狼与美女 (Wolf) (EXO-M Ver.)

12. 狼与美女 (Wolf) (Korean Ver.)

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EXO official SMTOWN website:

EXO-M: http://exo-m.smtown.com/Intro

EXO-K: http://exo-k.smtown.com/Intro

All the photos and images below are from the official websites. Members HQ photos can be download from there as SME prepared a rar. file for fans to Download.

*DO note that photos below are arranged according to time released*

*photos of members are labelled as : group name_birth name_aka_stage name*