This is gonna be me babbling about hatred~
Just close this page if you dun wanna read bout this~
PLease don't leave any bad comment if you ever do finish this post!! THANK YOU!!
Please don't judge me after reading!!!
Please don't gossip bout me~~~
PLease, Please please~~ THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!
I dun know if my friends(YOU) dislike me because I have this shytty and disgusting behavior WHICH I HATED IT MYSELF TOO~~
I'm worried that they dislike me or what, This and that.....
Sometimes it really do stings a lot when they tell you straight in da face but then you have to pretend to be okay~~ YA ACTING was one of my skills i can say better than my studies??? I guess so...
I know I'm embarrassing to you sometimes, but please don't hate me or anything...
I've tried very hard to become more boyish?? BUT i cant .. I've tried for the last 4 years.. which I failed~
But I've tried you know?? :( *pout*
This issue had been surrounding me for quite a long time and 'm scared of it sometimes.. trying to be strong in other people eyes.. but they always judge on my attitude and always put me behind them since they said I'm the one needed to be protected and not protect others.
"I'm too timid they said"
Sadly life goes on and I'm still trying my best~ So please don't hate me or dislike me!!
*well, some people do tell me how good I am.. and how grateful they are for having a friend like me....*
I doubted it sometimes... Are they lies???
I'm happy for hearing it of course, cause at least i do mean something for some people~~
I'm sorry if I have ever doubted it~~~
So, yeah that is probably all I wanted to say it out for quite a time. I wrote that this kicks in before writhing this post. But this actually kicks in when I started to realized this myself~ I'm sad.. real sad~~
Hereby, I wish you all da best in looking for great friends~~~~ sincerely one of course!!
~~~~~ THX for reading and spending your time here~~~~~