- Isaac's Diary,Rom History
- Kuching, Sarawak, Malaysia
- I myself think that I'm nice. You don't and never assume you yourself as bad guy right? make sense... I'm friendly. <3 But I'm the shy type. I don't really open up to people I just met if we ever do meet~ Anyway, nice meeting you all!!
HERE COMES TROUBLE!!
EXPECT a major updates of me and my teammates normal album shoot soon~
we are crazy. we know. but it was all for remembrance. Since we are leaving college soon~ so yeah major updates tomorrow~ :3
Recently i have been a bit unstable. I got moodswings a lot and i am not even a girl with pms *no pun intended*
I just feel so down whenever some song started playing...
Or some scene on tv or stories i read...
This little things can get me to be so down the whole day... sometimes even when waking up the next day it still somehow remains.
I know one of the reasons why am i being like this.
But that reason is just so private till i myself do not have the courage to open up.
In this world and era, those kind of thoughts are acceptable based on races and thoughts. It isnt safe to just expose nakedly to the world.. you have to be well prepared when trying to let the world know.. so it is that big matter.. i am worried sick...
I know this post seems random and very unorganized because one moment i am talking bout this and the next moment about that....
But you are still reading though.. thank you.
I might post up the reason one day though.. i will let everyone know. I have to sure that i am ready... hmmmm...
I sometimes wonder if i am born to be this way becaus ei have had realised this when i am in grade 4 in secondary school... i think this is kind of obvious to what i am refering already... but please do not point out for me.... thanks ...
I will write more these coming days.
Miss me not!
Aloha... dear readers....
So i am here to do some freaking explaination about my post yesterday.
It seems that there is someone who misunderstood about it.
Sigh...... i was just letting out my frustration okay!?
For your information i am not going to remove the post.
Do you even know how hard is it to keep all those emotions from being frustrated to being happy so long inside you and no one to talk to!?
I bet you don't ...
I am not saying that you are too good for whatever it is, but i kind of envy you for being able to talk to someone so easily about your inner thoughts.
Please do not misunderstand me. I mean no harm, no means of causing any trouble.
The feeling of trying to be strong in front of people and the truth is that i am really scared. I trembled sometimes. Sure i would not want others to see that side of me but surely there are people who knew. And i am thankful that they dont make fun of me. Phewww~~
I know there are a lot of silent readers here. And hey! I am thankful for that. And i know some even followed me on twitter and instagram. Kekekeke....
Owh okay back to the topic..
Its not like i have no one to talk to. It is just that i am scared they cant accept for who i really am.. they are just that kind and type from what i observed...
Telling them will only be a dare in life.. its like a 50/50 situation. Its either they accept or reject you.
Of course everyone hope for acceptance. Me too. But but but..... there is always this hint of rejection that causes you to believe that they will reject for who you are.
What can i do?let the time decide when it is the right time to tell?
I have no idea...
Till here i write..
Thanks for reading.
It had been a while since i updated.
Today topic, we will talk about my trust to my friends.
2 totally different gangs actually.
One gang where i have to be a calm person, and the other gang where i can show my colors.
But there is this one person which i consider and make as my most important person. I care about that person alot. And i am just worried about that person every single time.
Or am i being delusional? Can i cry? Or should i laugh about it?
I know what you think about me. No, more like i understand how you all think.
Sometimes i even wonder that why am i even bornmand why am i living this shitty life where all i wanted was like the opposites. It is not about what i need and wants. It is about the upside down of my life. It was not supposed to be this way. I just dont understand.
And that is when i hope that one day i will be able to tell you all of my bottled up files of secrets. From darkest and to the core of me. Bringing you to the island of secrets within me.